Interstellar Adventures

June 7, 2005

Momentary Melancholy

Filed under: Uncategorized — by InterstellarLass @ 11:17 am

Maybe I’m just guilty for over-sleeping for my workout this morning. Or, maybe I’m going through adrenaline withdrawl. Haven’t had that runner’s high in 2 days. I’ll get my time in tonight later at the gym. My night-owl tendencies got the better of me and I’m lucky my mom called and woke me up out of the blue.

Maybe after seeing D last night and watching him play with L while watching Z play baseketball has upset me. One thing is certain, he does love his kids, and he’s a good dad. Or it could be that D brought more ‘papers’ over on Sunday night. “I don’t understand these. Here’s the number for the lawyer.” Sigh. If I want this to move at any speed, I’m going to have to actually do it. So typical of everything in our relationship though.

Maybe I’m guilty over my feelings. They’re jumbled and confused, and all I want is peace. I know it will take me awhile to get there, and since I’m not patient, that makes it even harder. Do I take a chance and shoot for the stars, or do I play it safe for now? So difficult for me to pull myself out of my comfort zone.

This too shall pass. Friday night is the next girl’s poker night, and I’ll be smiling by then. See, I already have something to look forward too. And, it will make me sort through some crap I’ve left untouched since D left. Tomorrow night is date #3 with the CPA. Things are looking better already. Good thing I wore a skirt on my first date or he’d start to think I didn’t have legs…

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